My Big Fat Online Launch

Not only because the monthly feline subscription pack “Purrbox” arrived for our resident FIV-positive cat (though watching her rub her face on it is always a highlight), but also because I achieved several little life goals this week.

This week I earned £6.75 by selling music. That makes me REALLY excited. £6.75! WOOO!!

It goes without saying this has not exactly covered the cost of making the tracks I launched this week – I have a little bit further to go on that one – but it’s a very cool milestone as I now feel officially able to call myself:

And look at all these other cool things that happened!

Now to most PROFESSIONAL SINGERS [phwooarr], 9 downloads in the first 5 days of launch wouldn’t be much to write home – or a blog – about.

It raises a thought-provoking question that a friend asked me recently, “How will you know when you’ve ‘got there’, when you’re ‘successful’? When one of your songs plays on the radio? Or when you perform to like 20,000 people?”

As I struggled to answer the question, I realised that I could set any number of arbitrary goals and they wouldn’t change my motivation, passion or enjoyment of singing. I realised that – as with any art – making music publicly available comes with great risks attached and I will no doubt experience a lot of rejection in my life as long as I continue to do so. This rejection could either be crippling, constructive, or meaningless; depending on the power I allow it to have over me.

I choose to refuse (ooh good rhyme, will attempt to put in a song!) to allow the opinions of others to affect my decision to sing. My goal will not be a destination; my goal will be the journey. And I hope you’ll share it with me. : )